Straight Men?

Tonight we had the most awesome time just hanging out with a new found friend. The roommate and I had a mutual acquaintance that he new through photography and I knew through work, and we had him over to the house tonight. Nothing fancy really, in retrospect I should have whipped us up a great dinner, but I was exhausted after work and my quick afternoon nap left me waking up around seven in the evening. We just sat around and chatted, drank tea and smoked cigarettes. I know it is partly because this guy was interesting, creative, and exuberant, that I found myself so attracted to him. I mean don't get me wrong he was cute as hell too, like one of those college boys with a trim beard, the type that would wear maybe a corduroy blazer over a vintage tee-shirt, yum.

The more and more I thought about it, the more I wondered why I get along so well with straight men? I had a great time just last weekend hanging out with my male co-workers too. Don't get me wrong though, I'm not talking about hanging out with BUTCH men, but just average joes. I really like hanging out with the guys, and as long as they don't have a problem with me being "the gay guy" I am absolutely myself around them. When I look back I see several instances where my relationship partners exhibited less than "gay" characteristics too. I don't think its about gender roles either I mean you can be the Butch-but I'm NOT the Bitch, in contrast I tend to take the lead role in all past couplings. I'm not trying to be down on my gay brethren either, I mean Gurlll you wanna go shopping, call me, but when it comes to rules of attraction I find myself wanting so much a straight-like guy that also gives good head. And hell this is probably a gospel most gays are singing but its confusing as trigonometry when you're trying to figure out the keys to your happiness. Sigh, whats a boy to do?